Am I strong

I behave as a normal person even though I should not. I don't understand myself. I thought I would have cracked down. But I can still talk normal and feel hungry. Is it because I am numb? Too many troubles are waiting for me. Being numb helps because I don't feel hurt that much. Friends saw me last night (tried to cheer me up). They were surprised to see a calmed me. I know I am calm because my mind and my heart are not communicating. I guess this is a human instinct. My mind tries to save me by cutting off the communication from the heart. The heart is aching. The mind knows I need to be strong since I need to tackle all troubles that I am facing before I crash.